Hey :)
Lately I've been doing some self-reflection.
Been weighing my options in life, reflect upon my mistakes and regrets.
Then I came up on this one particular topic.
Love.
Love..huh. Last time I checked, this thing hurt me like hell.
Still does. Thought that I'll stop but what the heck, this thing is like drug itself.
Can't even back away, not even for a while.
Damn.
My previous post, yeah that person I talked about.
I'm thinking of moving on. Hence the new playlist.
Basically my mood when I was thinking about this.
Sigh.
I've been reflecting on what I did for that person.
Came to a sudden thought, whatever was that for?
I know how super nice I am to people, but this has gone too far.
Waste.
Not being kind towards that person for her approval.
Rather, I was just being myself, still am.
Just that...sometimes it feels as if I'm being used.
Ugh.
She shows some promise. I'm not picky, just as long as that person can stay true to me, it's all okay.
But lately, no matter what I do, it seems like everything is for naught.
She keeps on looking at someone else's way, while ignoring this one who was always in her way.
Well.
That's it. It's been too long.
Not that I'm ending the friendship, just that I want to get away for a while.
I don't think that I'll be able to erase this feeling just like that.
Bye.
See you next time. When I'm done throwing away what I truly have for you.
When I'm ready to see you with someone else.
When everything won't hurt anymore.
"Baby just say goodnight, I'll be gone tomorrow."
Oh yea, I just reached 20 yesterday (26 October 2015)
Hurray to me, yeah. The loneliest day of my life.
She gave all the attention to someone else, someone new,
instead of someone who've been through shitstorm with her,
who never gave up on her, who never let her go astray,
who tried the best he could to be right beside her.
Who love(d) her.
After using him for some crappy assignment,
she hung up.
Fuck I'm so mad and disappointed and depressed.
And fucking sad. And fucking mad. At myself.
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