It's been days since I last wrote. Or rather, typed. I'm sure this trend is here to stay, with my internship starting today and all. Well anyways-
I cleared things between me and Phiong. I guess after letting out everything, she finally understood why I am hurting so much. Might be too hurting too. Perhaps, because she insisted on me to kick her out of my life for hurting me. But then, after a rather lengthy conversation and me, obviously still pissed off, swearing and stuff, it is decided that I will stay as a brother-figure to her. Until she found someone she wants to be with. By the way, I do not know if it is already obvious, but she did say the four words, "I don't want you." to me, and that made the wound deeper. But as deeper as it went, I recovered just minutes after and I accepted the outcome of the conversation. She have not texted me yet since then, but well....I just kinda got tired of waiting and just let things be.
Actually, I feel free. Like, I am finally free from the chains that binds me to her. Now I am numb towards the idea of someone else fucking her and be together until God knows when. Perhaps this is a phase where I will be able to move on and do things I have never done before. Or perhaps it is time for another musical piece, or the time has come for me to complete my Archangel class ship of Gundam Seed anime series. However, as peaceful as things are, right now, I cannot help but feel rather annoyed at myself. For no reason.
It is 11:41 GMT +8 right now so I will go to bed, but before that I am going to wash my work shirt and hang it to dry. I only have two of them so I have to do this everyday for 5 months at least. I thought of staying as a permanent staff at my intern but that is another thing to ponder upon for my next post...maybe?
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